Lest We Forget

 

My Grandparents- Bruce and Joan Gibson- True Anzacs xx

My Grandparents- True Anzacs

Anzac Day, 25th of April, 2013

My Grandfather told me a story about his war-time experience that I hazard a guess he had never told anyone. It made for a very special day, I felt honoured and privileged that he opened up to me and told me a tale that for 68 years had never had an audience….

‘ His name was Alton Neil Robinson….but we all called him Bill. He was a few years older than me at school and very intelligent. He completed his leaving certificate at Mudgee High School ( 5 years of High School). I only did three years of secondary school’

‘ In Bills civilian life, he was a very talented cyclist. He also had a passion for languages’

‘ How many languages did he know?’ I asked but I did not get an answer.

‘ Bill was smart enough to enter the airforce during World War II. They wanted men who had completed their leaving certificate and Bill was a natural-born pilot’

‘ Did you want to be a pilot Grandfather?’

‘ Everyone had there different ideas about what they would do during the war’

‘Bill wrote me a letter from his pilot training quarters, asking if I would met him at a pub in Sydney for a drink. Telephone calls were to expensive to make, so we arranged out catch up through letter writing’

‘I remember sitting at that pub and waiting….Bill never showed up. He was too reliable a character, there had to be a reason….I knew something was wrong’

‘ Seven months passed, and still no word from Bill. One day I was scanning the newspaper, and I glanced over the war casuality list…and there was his name ‘ Alton Neil Robinson of Mudgee’…pilot, plane shot down over the English Channel..no survivors’

‘ I cut out the clipping and kept it. I still have it in my room, I came across it yesterday’

‘ He’d been called up to the war, and within two weeks, his plane was shot down, he was killed….and that was the reason we never had that last drink’

‘ I’ll never forget it. I just sat in the pub that day and waited for what seemed forever’

My Grandfather is crying.

I reach out to him and say ‘ Thank you for sharing this story ‘

He looks at me, and through tears says ‘ There are just some things I don’t talk about’, but with a look on his face that implies he is finally glad he had the courage to share, to let go in some small way of the hurt and suffering, guilt and anger that he had carried for close to 70 years.

Anzac Day, 25th April, 2013…a day I will never forget. A day the story of Alton Neil Robinson finally surfaced,a day I saw the softer side of my Grandfather for the very first time, a day I was entrusted with a story that will say with me forever.

Kevin Rudd, a cup of tea and me

I have always been a bit behind the times.

I don’t have a smart phone, I don’t use twitter and I still send letters by post.

In my recent post The Month that got away January 2013, I lamented that I wasted 31 days of a perfectly wonderful year wishing myself a new life, new career, partner, cat. Naturally when this did not eventuate I got depressed and anxious. When I snapped out of it….it was February already ( well at least it wasn’t November!!)

Blog writing took a back seat to the mental chit-chat that swirled about my head in January….from which job I would take at the Australian Council of the Arts to whether I wear a black, red or white dress to my impending nuptials to Johnny Depp….

With the fogg clearly oh so slightly in February, I realised some great things did happen during the first month of 2013, strange, odd occurances…so random in their nature that to write about them is the only way to make sense of the situation.

Catch up with a Mate was invited to have afternoon tea with Former Prime Minister of Australia, the honourable Mr Kevin Rudd. An event sponsored by Twinings Tea, in conjunction with the RSPCA, the tea ceremony was held at the Sydney University, where Mr Rudd launched his ‘ Australian Afternoon Tea’ blend ( sales from which a portion will go to the RSPCA)

Kevin and Kate

Kevin and Kate

In the summer sun, I mingled with the elite, drank Mr Rudd’s delightful tea blend, ate lamb sandwiches as puppy dogs frolicked on the manicured lawns of Sydney University. I was a unsure as to how I had ended up on the invite list, but truth be told…it really did no matter!! This was Catch up with a Mate’s first media invite and I lapping it up.

High Tea with K-Rudd's crew

High Tea with K-Rudd‘s crew

Yes, January 2013…the month that got away….but in amongst it all….some trully magical things did happen xx

Special shout out to my fellow blogging buddy, Cup of Tea and a Blog, who was at K-Rudd afternoon tea. May we met again, I’d happily go along to an Arnotts Tim Tam launch with you!! ( just putting it out there, you NEVER know who could be reading!!)

Words fail me!!

Words fail me!!

Ode to Freddie Mercury

It is the 3rd day of 2013…and I already I am tempted to pen the book ‘ Can I write myself a future?’

Feeling slightly of balance as I enter the New Year..all aspirations, dreams, desires and passions weighed down by an all-consuming sense of BLAH!!

And then, a ray of sunshine, a glimmer of hope, the documentary I was meant to watch, at home, alone on Wednesday the 2nd of January, 2013- Freddie Mercury- The Great Pretender

I struggle to find the right words to best capture the  life force that beamed through my television last night….What I will say is that Mr Mercury, you captivated me ….Your lust for life , love, passion, self belief, bravado and confidence….your ‘ I can do ANYTHING and I WILL’ attitude restored my faith in, well,  everything.

Mr Mercury…you are my poster boy for 2013, and this song is my anthem:

Followed closely by this gem:

Yes, in 2013 I want it all and I’ve got to break free…and I am investing ALL my energy into making this happen.

‘ Whatever you do, or dream you can do, being it- boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now’  Goethe

And the book ‘ Can I write myself  a future?’…may this be the year that I not only write the book, but I LIVE it too.

The Psychology of being TRAPPED!!

My mind wonders….this time last week, as I left the office after another day of administration something out of the ordinary happened.

The lift that was to release me back into the outside world got stuck.

I was trapped, with 8 other women in a metal box, dimensions 2m x 3m x 3m.

It was hot, uncomfortable, unpleasant and stressful.

But most of all …from my point of view….it wasn’t fair!!

It was Friday, and my free time was slowly being taken from me…each minute I was stuck I was painfully aware that after work drinks had started without me.

The psychology of being trapped is so interesting…as soon as I became aware that we were indeed stuck….I took in my surrounds…who I was with and started to observe their responses.

Some women were quiet, breathing slowly, not saying a word (their faces implying this is NOT a situation they were comfortable with), others began to talk, positive stuff, trying to lighten the mood, a natural leader emerged, a women who would speak to emergency crew who would eventually free us.

Yes, it was interesting being stuck in a metal box, dimensions 2m x 3m x 3m.

My reaction was of someone annoyed…I had better things to do with my time…this was not how I planned my Friday night…I wanted my freedom!! When the emergency crew advised that it could take up to 40 minutes to free us…well, quite frankly, that was not good enough…15 minutes waiting time was too long in my opinion.

I also wanted to know where exactly we were in relation to the ground…I did not like the idea of being suspended in mid-air! But we never received confirmation of exactly where we were…all we knew was that we were ‘somewhere’ between level one and the basement of the lift shaft.

And at the same time, though I kept this to myself( it just wasn’t appropriate to share!!) over and over in my head the Aerosmith song ‘ Love in an Elevator’ swirled

An hour in a metal box, dimensions 2m x 3m x 3m, is a very, very long time…especially if you share this space with 8 other women.

So when we were eventually freed, and set foot onto solid ground, there were shouts of joy and sighs of relief.

And finally our weekend could begin… this time on our own terms

A declaration : Be the change you seek

On the eve of the Catch up with a Mate Month, June 2012,  I sit down to write.

I have just returned from a talk that was part of the Vivid Festival, at which spoke  Chad Dickerson, the CEO of Etsy, the hugely successful online creative marketplace. Joining him for a conversation about the creative and its power to bring about change were 3 social entrepeneurs from Sydney.

The Vivid Festival Sydney is a spectacular 18 day celebration of light, music and ideas….a festival which embraces the creative…it has left me feeling inspired.

Be the change you seek

Of late I have been feeling a bit lacklustre about….well….everything

It is likely that those feeling will fade…as they tend to do..they come and go, sometimes hanging around longer than expected, sometimes paying only a fleeting visit.

This time round…they have hung around for longer than necessary….Be gone feeling of lacklustre!!

On stage tonight, 4 courageous people took turns in explaining their creative visions, why they do what they do, what motivates and inspires them. Though each story was different, what united the panel was their self belief and determination in not only themselves, but their business to bring about social change, be it to an individual, group, community or entire nation ( watch out world!!)

There is nothing I find more inspiring than a person who believes in themselves.

Over the last couple of days, perhaps weeks ( do I have to admit months??) my self belief has been slowly unravelling….little by little, I have begun to doubt my self-worth and ability ‘to be the change I seek’

The change I seek?…to be more honest, open to experience, vibrant, engaged, passionate in all aspects of my life.

How will I do this?…by putting conscious effort into these areas which I have identified as important.

The key component to a person’s ability to bring about change is self belief …and the Vivid panel has reminded me of the that self belief is a vital tool that allows one to believe that anything, yes, anything is possible.

So to Catch up with a Mate month….a month where personal reflection is a necessity, a month in which to make a conscious effort to identify what inspires you, a month to surround yourself with friends and family….

Lets the fun times begin….

CUWAM- My right toe is pregnant

Your eyes do not deceive you…I really did title this post ‘ My right toe is pregnant’…Please forgo a few minutes of your time to hear me out!

In February I was out in the garden, bare foot, removing some palm branches that had been chopped down by someone living in my apartment block…

Lesson number one: Do not garden barefoot

Just as my parents turned up for a pre arranged lunch date, the tip of a palm branched thought it best to embed itself in my right toe…

My instant reaction was to cry out ‘ A palm branch has entered my toe’

My parents, unimpressed with this strange welcome, did their best to comfort me by telling me how silly I was to garden with naked feet….and then proceeded to administer first-aid: grated soap, sugar and a band-aid? Why? Apparently this remedy had been passed down from generation to generation ( lucky me) as an ‘effective’ way of softening the skin ( the soap component) to enable to foreign object to be easily removed.

Lesson number two:  Soap, sugar and a band-aid do not aid the remove of foreign objects from toes

Days passed, and the soap and band-aid method was losing its shine…My right toe was clean, but the strange lump remained, and my toe looked bruised and battered.

I went to the Doctors…who confirmed that there was NOTHING stuck in my right toe, that my soap & sugar approach to first-aid was laughable…and with a tetanus injection and a course of antibiotics he sent me on his way.

Lesson number three: The passing of time does not heal all wounds

4 month have passed  since I came to believe that a small piece of palm branch had taken up permanent residency in my right toe.

Whilst I initially I took comfort in the fact that a  real life Doctor had looked me straight in the eye and told me that their was NOT a piece of palm in my toe, as time passed, and my right toe took on a permanent shade of ‘bruised’ and ‘ lumpy’, doubts surfaced.

Lesson number four: You know your own body better than anyone else

On monday this week…I took matters into my own toes.

At a recent check up at the Doctors, I presented my toe, aired my concerns once more, and was referred to an ultra sound specialist for review….all I could think was ‘ My right toe is pregnant!!’…

And so it was that 48 hours ago,  my right toe was lubed up and examined.

The result: A palm branch, 9.1mm of glorious palm is embedded in my toe.

Lesson number five: Palm branches to not belong in toes and must be removed

And that folks, is my current dilema…a Doctors appointment for next week is pending…And hopefully the ordeal for my poor right toe will come to an end, the palm branch removed, normality restored.

As for my right toe, it can go back to being just that, no longer in the forefront of my thoughts, safely tucked away beneath wooly socks and leather shoes.

Its time in the spotlight is almost over.

To be continued….

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