Los Angeles – A Like Story

Los Angeles  – City of Angels – California – USA.

Melrose Ave - Los Angeles

Melrose Ave – Los Angeles

I left you this time last week, and whilst I was more than ready to come home – those 6 days in your company affected me.

My aim was to fall in like with you – not love, in 6 days that would be too much to ask.

To achieve this, I transported the best version of my Sydney life – yoga, beach visits, pancake eating, coffee sipping and general meanderings to the West Coast and waited.

And wait I did, I began hoping and praying that each time I left the comfort of my West Hollywood Air BNB apartment the mixture of self-consciousness, anxiety and fear would subside.

As I ventured to numerous West Hollywood yoga studios, Runyon Canyon for mountain hikes, Santa Monica Boulevard for the most AMAZING pancakes, Down Town LA for a change of scene, Venice Beach for a little more CRAZY and listened to the music of John Mayer – this chronic over-thinker began to notice a shift.

Despite the confronting scenes LA served up in quick succession – I noticed my heart softening, the inner chatter diminishing as I became transfixed by the heartbreak, the chaos, the raw beauty that is LA living.

All I had to do was to leave the house and get amongst it – stop thinking, start doing.

And I had heard that saying countless times before but in LA, of all places, it.finally.made.sense.

Back in Sydney, I will be forever thankful for the lessons learnt on the West Coast. If a sense of peace can be found in a city with 6 lane freeways ( in EACH direction) then it can be found anywhere.

Despite the inner chatter, the pleas from within that your best self is to be found on the couch, mindlessly watching NETFLIX – to that I can confidently say ‘ NO’

In spite of what appeared at times to be the most inhospitable surrounds, the beauty and warmth of the human spirit was there to be uncovered – and with an open heart, I got to experience just that.

Thank you LA – I do indeed LIKE you very much.


Compassion – A breakfast lecture

CreativeMornings, Sydney : Friday 29th of September.


Creative What?

CreativeMornings is a breakfast lecture series for the creative community. They’re free, monthly events that feature a short talk, Q+A and breakfast. CreativeMornings started in NYC in 2008 and has since grown to over 100 cities all over the world. The local chapters not only celebrate a city’s creative talent but also promote an open space to connect with like-minded people. CreativeMornings happen one Friday a month from 8:30am to 10am ( taken directly from CM website)

So I happened to find myself in the right place at the right time to attend CM’s breakfast lecture on compassion. The lecture was to be given by Mr Edo Kahn, Co-Founder of A Sound Life, an organisation providing free music therapy, yoga and meditation to the needy.

Edo speaks from the heart, he speaks with conviction, he exudes compassion.

A story of love and loss, purpose and passion.

A story upon hearing, one would be willing to forgive the central character for giving up on life, shutting the door to love and retreating within.

Yet compassion, first and foremost for himself, has been Edo’s guiding force. Its healing qualities have enabled him to withstand life’s storms, and to continue to give , ever so graciously, to those around him in endless supply.

Through song, through the spoken word, through video snippets, the audience was gifted with insight into the importance of living purposefully.

Like us all, Edo admitted to days when anger or frustration take hold. When nerves arise or when decisions don’t come easily. And at such times, compassion, self compassion, is key.

Thank you Edo, thank you CreativeMornings Sydney. I was in the right place and the right time and I was open to listening to ideas I’m certain have fallen on deaf ears in the past!

Compassion, first and foremost for yourself, will sooth and comfort. It has a freeing quality, enabling you to navigate the trials and tribulations of daily life.









A breakfast lecture in Redfern Sydney.

Life Lessons, Thanks Leonard

At the start of 2017 I boldly declared I was done with life lessons after being dealt yet another setback.

Five months later I realise I could not have been more wrong. Opportunities for learning are ever-present and we can choose our response – what a luxury!

We either solider on, push through and stay true to tried and tested behaviours and thought patterns.

Or we stop in our tracks, we pause, we reflect, we ponder. And when we do get going again, we do so with new insight and purpose.

The late Leonard Cohen wrote ‘ There is a crack in everything, that is how the light gets in’

Lately, the ground beneath my feet has been unsteady, yet I remained committed to the familiar routine, not willing to acknowledge its short comings.

And then a moment of clarity – the light flooded in and I saw clearly what I had to do.

The old ways of being loosened its grip, and in its place, the immersion of a women, self-assured : with an over-supply of the tools needed to solve the problem that had been  troubling her all along.

A personal epiphany, one I will not shy away from, rather start the process of integrating  lessons learnt into aspects of my being.

I am thankful for yet another opportunity for personal growth. I am forced to eat humble pie : I was wrong, I am not done with life lessons!!




Temporary Holding Zone

I am stuck
Literally- locked in, caged, wings clipped.
I close my eyes, my ears prick at the suggestion of footsteps in the room.
I imagine them walking with purpose towards me, a key chain rustles
With great precision, they prise open the cage door
I taste, smell, touch and see freedom- happy tears flow.

But the cage is a self imposed one, it has no physicality
There are forces holding me back that I cannot articulate.
It is an inner state of turmoil.
Outwardly, this is evident in my behaviour
I am irritable, on edge and tired.

I am stuck but I know it won’t be forever
For the first time in a long time, I accept the situation for what it is and know it will pass
Each day I edge closer to a new beginning
As I wait it out, it is important to the search and find a silver lining in every situation
All those beautiful shiny lids on the ground, sparkling just for me.

Beautiful Shiny Lids

A self-diagnosed trouble maker
She loved that – and was proud to think he knew himself that well

Gold dust, glitter, sparklers and beautiful shiny lids
Head in the cloud, heart a flutter, day dreaming a future
Time floating overhead represented her past.

And now?

A cup of instant coffee, sunshine and Donald Trump had her grounded.
Though it was easy to loose herself in lofty thoughts….she knew better.

Reality was a bitch, but the effort required to stay present was liberating.
Human interaction, a conversation, sharing of ideas, a smile, a hand shake, a hug.

She loved the ‘ shiny lid’ outlook recently acquired.
Happiness could be found in the mundane and the sublimely beautiful.

As long as she remained present, grounded, with two feet firmly on the ground.

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